Money makes me productive. Its my main motivator. The only thing that makes me feel good about who I am is my appearance. When I want to I can be stunning. I love makeup and hair. Music makes my creative juices fllow. I listen to music 24/7. The babies in my life, keep me going forward when I am worn out. They help push me on because I want to make their lives good. Without being paid for I would definitely train and ride horses.
The day I found out I was pregnant, I was nervous. I shakily opened the box and ripped the wrapper off and took the test. I could barely breathe and a wave of nausea swept over me. I gripped the side of the sink to steady myself. My aunt knocked on the door. My heart beat faster and faster, as time passed by. I slowly breathed in as thoughts spun around my head. I was scared. The guilt in my chest swooped down and knotted up m y tummy. Tears gathered up in the corner of my eyes and I refused to let them fall. Finally I had enough and looked down at my hand. One for positive and 2 for negative. There, perfectly on the little screen was a number 1. There was no doubt about it. I let the tears drop. A rush of panic grabbed me and knocked me to the floor. My aunt rushed in and cried "Genna, what is it?" I rolled over and threw the test at her feet. She leaned over and picked it up. She gasped and shook her head. I knew she was in shock just as much as I was. We were both scared. What would we do? What was going to happen next?
My life isn't perfect. It isn't even close to it. I'm afraid of what my future will be like. I'm strong willed, and closed minded. I always do what I want and I wont let anything stop me. Right now it seems like my life is falling apart. I am 3 weeks pregnant. My boyfriend left me once he found out and I am stuck, alone. I have one job, where I get paid $5 dollars an hour. Everyone thinks Im some kind of slut, just because I get more guys than they could ever get lol. I don't pity myself, but I truly wish my life was different.
Things I love:
my best friend
chilling with everyone and anyone
I work 3 hours a week, taking my creativity to the next level. Working for Lydia we make some pretty dope stuff. At first I refused to come and I did not like it at all, but after a while I got used to it. I enjoy creating my own unique styles of jewelry.